Some People Can Speak From the Heart and Others Well......

WOW!!! I have had an exciting weekend! Friday I was off from work all day long, which is something that I haven't done since my Christmas trip to New York! It was great to get away but I know that I will have plenty of work when I get back to my desk tomorrow.

Friday I got to hang out with all of my friends from home because we were all in Jessie's wedding! I was sooo excited! I am soo happy for her!! We got to hang out by the pool and get a little bit of sun. Janice is always entertaining. She always thinks of the funniest things to say and I just can't stop laughing! After the pool, we all got ready for the rehearsal an the rehearsal supper. That was sooo fun and it was a great feeling to see it all coming together. Did I mention how super organized Jessie is? Well, for those of you who don't know she's a school teacher and naturally most school teachers are super OCD about organization. She had thought of everything and since I am very detail oriented I notice those kinds of things. :) You see I have the tendency to only look at the minute things and not at the BIG picture. The thing is that I do know this about myself and I just can't really get past it.

Anyways, the wedding was Saturday at Big Canoe and it was beautiful!! Everything ran soo smoothly and everything was well thought out as far as planning and timing goes.

I have come to the time where it is now MY turn!! I am about 4 months away from my Wedding!! I am soo excited and nervous at the same time!! I want everything to be very classy rustic chic, if you will!! I can finally get everything going and start solidifying things. Now don't get me wrong it does frighten me a little but in the end I know it will all work out and everything will be okay. Everyone please say a few prayers for me and my family for we will all need it as we progress from this point forward! God is Love!!

What is Happiness?

Happiness is on my mind tonight and lately. Today, I have felt very blah. Ya know when you have a case of the blahs. You just cant really explain how it feels.

But I do have one question...I mean what is happiness anyways? Pardon me a minute while I get pretty analytical. Happiness literally means: a state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. I see people in the doctors office all of the time because they are depressed. Does this mean they arent happy? How do they know they wont be happy in an hour or even the next day? I know there are things, people and places that can make one happy. Any kind of food or that extra fizzy coke that the Japanese restaurants serve make me happy. But......happiness is just a temporary state. Its one of many more emotions that a person can have at any given time. What if you never achieve that happiness? Do you own your own happiness? Sometimes on occasion, no one can help, or say or do anything to make me happy.

What I do know is what happiness is not. Happiness is not always a smile because there are some people out there (myself included) that can fake a smile like a champ. Happiness is not a tangible item. Happiness is not normal.

So what makes me happy..you mite be thinking? Ill start with just a few things I guess. It makes me happy when people actually do listen to what I have to say and don't just blow me off as if what I do have to say is not important or doesn't matter cuz trust me sometimes I do have valid arguments. I do like the extra fizzy coke at Osaka. I love a pair of great fitting jeans and yes sometimes to find those you must spend a little bit more than most people. The smell of a new luxury leather purse or anything leather for that matter. Country music and great makeup also make me happy. The sunshine beating down on me while I sit on the beach and just relax is the ultimate. So, of all of the things I listed off, those things can't happen every single day. How can one feel the emotion of happy everyday? Or even sustain it for a day or longer? I do not have the answers but I was just thinking about all of this.

Thanks for listening and I will have more wedding updates and thoughts to come.