Alot of Change

So, I haven't blogged in a while because there has been alot of changes going on in my life. Since I last blogged, I have gotton a job offer, prayed hard about that offer, caleb's dad got laid off....again, we started a new software program at my current job, interviewed duane jones for a bid for photography for my wedding, and looked at invitations and save the date cards for my wedding. Whew!! I don't know about all of you but that has been down right exhausting. While doing all of that, I have been working my can off. I have worked 45-50 hours a week at my current job. I got a job offer TODAY from Northeast Georgia Medical Center. It is only a part time position. I really feel that I should work part time in the office that I am still in now and also work part time at the medical center. I think that would be a great move for me and I would not have to work as many long nites like I have been currently working.

I am not a very good decision maker. I struggle over many decisions in my life. They can be big or just small like everyday things that ordinary people proabably never even think about. It's almost like I just can't shut my mind off. I keep thinking and thinking and thinking. One of the nurse practioners said that I remind her alot of herself. And she says that she thinks alot and that makes her often forget things quicker. Now, I don't often forget things but I could see what she is saying. The decision thing is kinda getting to me because there are SO MANY decisions to be made when planning a wedding. I did get registered at Crate & Barrel though. My mom, sister and I went there and they served breakfast and I got to click and scan away there. It was really nice. It was a private event. Get on their website and check out my registry at www.crateandbarrel.com

This past week I had the opportunity to work with Sonja Chafin. She is the wife of the guy who died 2 weeks ago in the tragic car accident (that I spoke about in my previous blog). She looked good but I could just tell that she wasn't "all right." When I got home around 9:30pm after work, I really felt for her and her children and just began to cry. I can't even begin to relate to her or her children but my heart just goes out to them. The whole family needs our thoughts and prayers now and in the coming weeks. I wish them peace in the coming days and strength to trust in the Lord and he will weather them through their toughest times.

Speaking of change, it's friday night and Caleb and I have a date!!! I am going to change out of scrubs and into date night clothes to hopefully have a good time.

Grateful, Faithful, Thankful And Just Plain Full

Today has been rough! Caleb woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I guess his ankle is playing a BIG part in his attitude. He needs to be thankful that it is not broken, well, at least I don't think it is. But I am also not a doctor. This past Wednesday nite, Caleb and I found out that Megan Chafin's dad, Terry Chafin, died in a car accident on Hwy 400. Megan is a childhood friend and old girlfriend of Caleb's. I know Megan and I also work with her mom, Sonja at the doctor's office. When I found out, I immediately started to cry and I didn't even know the man, although I do know his wife and daughters. Caleb told me that's part of having a big heart. They think he had a heart attack and then crashed the car. I have not heard the official cause of death as of yet.

I left the (4 inch) snow covered mountains this afternoon just to get out of the house. I have had alot on my mind lately. We went to the funeral home today. There were tons of people there just as I had expected. I told myself that I would be strong and not break down in front of many people I knew and some I didn't. But, Sonja was talking to Caleb and telling him how much Megan's dad, Terry, loved him and how he favored Caleb over many other of Megan's boyfriends. Caleb recounts that him and Terry would go riding around and bought volkswagons together. Needless to say, the had a pretty close and good relationship. Then, she told Caleb to make sure he always takes good care of me and that Terry would be proud of him for doing so. That's when I just had the breakdown. I was crying uncontrollably. I guess it was just that I can't even imagine how Megan feels. Megan and I have something in common, we are both daddy's girls. We are also daddy's first girl and that is something irreplaceable and very special. I can't even possibly put myself in her shoes. I think it's because it could of happened to anyone at anytime. Hid death was totally unexpected, unplanned, and yet there's something thats unfamiliar about it all to me. We are not promised tomorrow here on this earth. We will never know when our last sun has set. After giving it much thought, I think it's better that way, though. My destiny is in the Lord's hands. We must cling to our faith to get us through and I know that. And that's alot easier said than done.

We left the funeral home and went to the Valentine's Day Supper at Yellow Creek Baptist Church (our church) . The youth puts it on every year and the money goes to help them go on their Youth retreat to Gatlinburg. This year was my second year going. The first year Caleb and I dated we couldn't go because we were on the road traveling to play baseball. I say we but I mean Caleb was playing and I was traveling to watch him play. Last year, we went and had a blast. This year was no exception. The food was delicious and we left with full stomaches. We also got to eat with Katie Copeland, Caleb's cousin, and Darren, Caleb's uncle. It was good to see Katie and I would love to hang out with her more but she's a senior in high school and she needs to live up those last couple of months because they go by soo quickly and you will wish you could go back. Katie will be playing softball at Truett McConnell on scholarship next year. I am very proud of her and wish her nothing but the best and if she needs anything at all she knows where to find me.

I think that's it for now. I leave this post with a heavy heart tonight for Megan and her family. My thoughts and prayers are definitely with her and her family in their time of heartbreak.

TGIF!!

Thank God It's Friday!! I really thought I would have had more time to blog this week. Well, we started a brand new computer system in the doctor's office that I work for. We only had maybe 4 hours training on the system. Needless to say, we are VERY slow and I am VERY frustrated!! I consider myself pretty technologically savvy and yet even I am slow and have to ask too many questions!

Yesterday, Thursday, I shadowed for a job at Northeast Georgia Medical Center (NGMC). I really like the hospital. I already know many current employees and could easily see myself working there. As I left the hospital, I had kind of a flash forward experience, I guess that is what you would call it. I could see myself working in the ER as a PA (that's Physician Assistant for all of you who arent in a medical career) . I think this "vision" was the sign I have been looking for, for a really long time. It is so hard to imagine that this May I will have been graduated from college for 1 year!! A year ago, I was ready to graduate but worried and scared about my future. A few months later I was hired at a doctor's office in which I had been shadowing. I knew then that I really wanted a career in the medical field I just didn't know exactly where. I really think that I need to do whatever I can to get into PA school.

Today, Friday, I didnt leave the office until 5:30! I seem to always have left over work that never gets done since we have begun on this new computer system. At this time, It had been snowing for almost 4 hours! There was a good 2 inches on my car! I scraped it off and got a phone call. Caleb stepped off of the porch at our house and turned his right ankle very badly. Now I live about 1 mile from the office and yet it took me about 12 minutes to get home. I got behind a snow plow on the way to come and check on him. I think that was supposed to happen so that I wouldn't rush home in the snow and ice on the ground. Caleb's ankle is very swollen and very blue. I called the doctor I know and she said it sounded only like a high sprain. Currently, he is laying on the couch by the fire with his leg propped up and ice on his ankle. Ridge (our lab) is laying on him and "keeping him warm". So, I care for people all day and then I have to come home and care for Caleb! I will always care for people and that is just a part of my caring soul and personality. I have a big heart and I dont ever forsee that changing.

I measured the snow outside and we currently have rite under 3 inches on the ruler. How official! I am going to clean up the dishes and house and take care of Caleb and I hope to blog again tomorrow!

Freedom of Expression

So, This is my first blog. It's exciting but yet scary. I know that it will definitely be a good thing for me. I want to do a little catching up, so here goes. I moved to Dahlonega to attend North Georgia College & State University in Fall of 2005. I graduated in four years with my Bachelor of Science degree in Biology!! I found the man of my dreams here in Dahlonega and have since made this my home away from home. Caleb and I plan to wed on October 23,2010. Hence my blog name of "From Kidd to Copeland". Copeland will soon be my new last name and I couldn't be happier!!

The Many Reasons Why I have chosen to blog: I have moved away from my family, my childhood friends, and everything that I have always called my home. I am going through a TON of change in my life. I will consider my blog a coping mechanism, communication tool, and a way to share my thoughts and feelings with friends that are both near and far.

I want to back-date my blog so I want to start on Friday, February 5th, 2010.

I got a phone call on Thursday nite asking me to substitute teach. I agreed because I thought this mite be a sign that I have been looking for. I subbed at Long Branch Elementary School in Dahlonega, Ga. It was my very first time subbing and I was in a 1st grade classroom. I handled it pretty well with all things considered. The first two hours were great. Then, as we began taking tests, four to be exact, kids began acting up. One put his entire arms in the sink and spun around flinging water on everyone. Another, was throwing scissors, pencils, and crayons. You name it and they threw it. I finally had the school deputy come into the classroom and warn the students. I had a behaviorally challenged child in the room and he proceeded to scream "I hate EVERYONE" one hundred times. I called and he was removed from the classroom but at least I lasted until after lunch! Other than those minor mishaps, I think subbing overall went well for me. It rained all day on Friday and it was just a miserable evening. Caleb and I picked up a pizza in town and went to his parents house for supper. We always have good food, good times, and great conversation there.

Saturday, February 6th, 2010

Caleb and I got up and ate breakfast at the Wagon Wheel. Its a local restaurant here in Dahlonega. Caleb worked from 10-1 and then we took my bow to Tritt's to have a peep put on it. I did laundry and cleaned house and then met Jessie and Hannah at On The Border by North Point. We had an awesome time and I love meeting up with my friends from home. They give me comfort. I can always pick right back up where we left off even though I live an hour away! Its a great feeling to have that and I just don't know what I would do without all of them!!

Okay, this is getting long! Today Sunday, February 7th, 2010.

Caleb and I went to church just like we do every Sunday. Chris preached his heart out today!! I always enjoy his preaching. He is a younger preacher with a family and I can easily relate to him. His messages apply to everyone. Today, he preached about not having excuses. You will either go to Heaven or you will go to Hell. Excuses will only get you to hell. (Pardon all of the language) But, that is flat out what the message was about. I love my church family and I am very thankful to have one. If you haven't joined a Church you really aren't living. After I was saved, the Lord led me to join Yellow Creek Baptist Church. Now, it's not some huge church. It's a quiet old country church with southern gospel singing and preaching and it doesn't get any better than that! Check out their website: www.yellowcreekchurch.com Caleb actually designed the whole thing!

I guess that's it for now! I am excited to continue writing and I would love to hear from you if you read my posts and just let me know what you think!