Grateful, Faithful, Thankful And Just Plain Full

Today has been rough! Caleb woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I guess his ankle is playing a BIG part in his attitude. He needs to be thankful that it is not broken, well, at least I don't think it is. But I am also not a doctor. This past Wednesday nite, Caleb and I found out that Megan Chafin's dad, Terry Chafin, died in a car accident on Hwy 400. Megan is a childhood friend and old girlfriend of Caleb's. I know Megan and I also work with her mom, Sonja at the doctor's office. When I found out, I immediately started to cry and I didn't even know the man, although I do know his wife and daughters. Caleb told me that's part of having a big heart. They think he had a heart attack and then crashed the car. I have not heard the official cause of death as of yet.

I left the (4 inch) snow covered mountains this afternoon just to get out of the house. I have had alot on my mind lately. We went to the funeral home today. There were tons of people there just as I had expected. I told myself that I would be strong and not break down in front of many people I knew and some I didn't. But, Sonja was talking to Caleb and telling him how much Megan's dad, Terry, loved him and how he favored Caleb over many other of Megan's boyfriends. Caleb recounts that him and Terry would go riding around and bought volkswagons together. Needless to say, the had a pretty close and good relationship. Then, she told Caleb to make sure he always takes good care of me and that Terry would be proud of him for doing so. That's when I just had the breakdown. I was crying uncontrollably. I guess it was just that I can't even imagine how Megan feels. Megan and I have something in common, we are both daddy's girls. We are also daddy's first girl and that is something irreplaceable and very special. I can't even possibly put myself in her shoes. I think it's because it could of happened to anyone at anytime. Hid death was totally unexpected, unplanned, and yet there's something thats unfamiliar about it all to me. We are not promised tomorrow here on this earth. We will never know when our last sun has set. After giving it much thought, I think it's better that way, though. My destiny is in the Lord's hands. We must cling to our faith to get us through and I know that. And that's alot easier said than done.

We left the funeral home and went to the Valentine's Day Supper at Yellow Creek Baptist Church (our church) . The youth puts it on every year and the money goes to help them go on their Youth retreat to Gatlinburg. This year was my second year going. The first year Caleb and I dated we couldn't go because we were on the road traveling to play baseball. I say we but I mean Caleb was playing and I was traveling to watch him play. Last year, we went and had a blast. This year was no exception. The food was delicious and we left with full stomaches. We also got to eat with Katie Copeland, Caleb's cousin, and Darren, Caleb's uncle. It was good to see Katie and I would love to hang out with her more but she's a senior in high school and she needs to live up those last couple of months because they go by soo quickly and you will wish you could go back. Katie will be playing softball at Truett McConnell on scholarship next year. I am very proud of her and wish her nothing but the best and if she needs anything at all she knows where to find me.

I think that's it for now. I leave this post with a heavy heart tonight for Megan and her family. My thoughts and prayers are definitely with her and her family in their time of heartbreak.